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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Rape/Non-Con, Underage
  Category:
      F/M, Multi
  Fandom:
      Harry_Potter_-_J._K._Rowling
  Relationship:
      Orion_Black/Bellatrix_Black_Lestrange, Bellatrix_Black_Lestrange/
      Rodolphus_Lestrange, Bellatrix_Black_Lestrange/Voldemort
  Character:
      Bellatrix_Black_Lestrange, Orion_Black, Rodolphus_Lestrange, Voldemort
  Additional Tags:
      Incest, Graphic_depiction_of_Incestuous_relationship, Triggers
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      Published: 2016-03-07 Words: 2089
****** The Two Entwined ******
by tambrathegreat
Summary
     Fear has a smell, as does love-- Margaret Atwood
     Bellatrix Black is honed into a weapon from the beginning.
Notes
     Thanks to Imablack and Vera Rozalsky for their input on this story.
Fear has a smell, as Love does. – Margaret Atwood
She did not remember when the smell of fear first took on the odor of sweat,
sex, blood, and tart lavender. It was early in her life, that smell that was
forever linked in her mind to fear along with the feeling of aching agony, weak
orgasm, and the pooling of viscous fluids between her thighs. The stomach-
tumbling feeling of fear it was; his, slimy and cooling, hers, hot and tainted
with shame filled-blood.
Between them there was always blood, and only that first agony-wracked time was
Bella innocent.
Little girls who were good did not allow their uncle in their beds at night
during his stay for Samhain or Yule, or Ostara, or Beltane. Little girls that
were good did not crave the rough, forbidden glide of his hairy chest against
her flat, smooth one, even as she fought against the pain of his intrusion in
that secret spot between her legs. Little girls that were good died by their
own hands like the poor girls in the proscribed Muggle books she read in her
father’s study, when no one was home but her and one of the negligent house
elves. No one would ever say that Bellatrix Black was good, she made sure of
that by half-hoping that Uncle Orion would seek her bed out when he visited.
At first, she told herself she welcomed him so that she could keep Narcissa
safe. But as time wore on, Bella became jealous of the attention he paid anyone
other than her. Narcissa was warned off Bella’s prize more times than either
sister could count. Heated, hair-pulling fights broke out between them outside
their parents’ hearing over who would get to greet him on his visits. Bella
made sure she always won. She would welcome him with the innocence of a child
at the door; arms wide, legs around his waist as he patted her back, and then,
with the sinuous slide of her knicker-clad cunt against his cloth covered cock,
would she be given the immediate reward. Later, she knew she would welcome him
with the knowledge of Eve, in much the same way. She would show her superiority
to perfect Narcissa in each thrust she took from him, each time she gobbled his
bitter spunk. She was a jealous mistress, even at such a young age.
It was her tenth year when she decided to take control of the situation. Bella
knew she was desirable to him in a way Aunt Walburga could never be. Bella with
her black hair, dark, heavy-lidded eyes, and slender body, was all that Uncle
Orion dreamed about. Bella cast as Lolita was as sure of her appeal as any
larval character in a Nabokov novel. Uncle was in the library sitting before
the fire, waiting for dinner to commence. His two sons and his wife were in
their rooms; she with a megrim and they being punished for fighting. Her lover-
uncle greeted her with the usual diffidence he showed during the day. Bella was
used to it, this need for secrecy. After all, she was supposed to go to her
husband untouched, and Uncle was definitely not supposed to touch her. He took
precautions that no one would know, at least physically, just how much
knowledge little Bella possessed. Long ago, he had showed her the spell to
reattach her hymen, and he did it every time after, apologetic in a way that
Bella knew was false. He loved that she spilled her virgin blood over and over
for him, no matter that she held the knowledge of Lilith under his tutelage. He
loved that there was that sharp shock of pain that made her want to cry out
when he breached her each time. Bella thought she might like the pain too, but
was unsure. Perhaps when she married she would find out.
She sat next to Uncle on the couch, knees childishly tucked under her chin,
skirt hiked far enough up that he knew her old-fashioned knickers were absent.
She smelled him, the leathery, lavender scent that always preceded his late-
night excursions. It was the smell of love, those scents tied inextricably to
the fear smells of spunk and musk. At some point in their relationship, Bella
had come to realise that both were the odour of her power over him. She owned
him with their secret language of scent, even if she was too young to put the
thought into words. Bella had the power of his ruination between her legs.
She touched his arm and scooted up on the couch, her legs spread wide, her
still naked pubis exposed. The air hit her as she lifted her skirt even higher
and delved between them, opening herself for him to see. She was at once
innocent in her age and a whore in her conduct. Predictably, and somewhat
disappointingly, he responded to her enticement. He answered the call of her
achy, little girl cunt with delving fingers and a hot jet of fluids as he raced
to his small demise, even as her father’s weighty feet trod ponderously on the
floor above them. After, Uncle squeezed her throat the second time he shoved
into her with his nearly flaccid penis. She blacked out and came to with his
smirking face over her. “My ickle whore, never do that again, or I will kill
you and then tell your family what you did with me of your own will.”
It wasn’t the fear of death that silenced her, but the fear of exposure. Bella
was still young enough that she wanted to be perceived as good. Her lover-uncle
had helped her to sit up, and cleaned the blood and spunk from between her
legs, repaired that useless bit of skin inside her, and then left the room. He
had never returned to her when she was young, and Bella hated him for it.
She found after she went to school that for her and few other privileged
people, pain was indeed linked with sex. Rodolphus had been the only one of the
boys in her year to realise that, and at first he gave her what she wanted.
More days than not after their first assignation, Bella had to charm her looks,
glamour herself not to show the bruises of his fingers on her throat, his fist
on her face. Rodolphus employed every perversion he could to dominate Bella, to
make her his. She married him for that knowledge, bestowing her false hymen on
him whilst they were betrothed. He had beaten her for giving in to him the
first time he took her, and she had loved the crash of his fist in her gut,
came from the feel of his knuckles on her cheek, all done whilst he took her
brutally. Then he took the Mark. After that, he demanded punishment for his
imagined indiscretions. She found she liked inflicting the pain almost as much
as the infliction of it. Rodolphus liked it more, however, and soon Bella was
cast in the role of his punisher all the time. It was not what she desired, not
what she craved.
In the extremity of her disappointment the third year of her marriage, she
sought out her uncle once again, and he gave her the world in a dark hood and a
gag. Long gone was his fear of exposure. Walburga had never shared his passions
and had finally barred him from her bed. And truly, he told Bella, she was the
only being he had trained that obeyed so well under his benevolent lash. He
told her he had missed her and then showed her, with whip and cord. Leather and
rubber became the scent of love. Blood and heated metal became the delicious
odour of fear. Would he go too far this time? Would he cut too deeply with his
knives? She never knew. There were no safe words in their relationship. Bella
could not stand the thought of them, even as she acknowledged that what he did
to her, he did because she wanted it. She had the power over him even as he
whipped her, degraded her, and suspended her from all senses but the one of
pain.
Then Orion died a stupid death with an underage youth in a brothel. His heart,
never the largest of organs, gave out after a strenuous session with a barely
teen boy whore. Bella felt abandoned and inconsolable. Her family mistook her
reaction as one of devotion to him, but it wasn’t. She hated the bastard for
taking so much from her and leaving her with only her pitiful, punished husband
to fill the void.
It was when Rodolphus introduced her to the Dark Lord that the scent of love
and fear became entwined in the ozone-laden odour of the Cruciatus. The burning
scent over her skin caused her to writhe in an ecstasy of pain and devotion.
When the Dark Lord let up, Bella craved more, and the glint of red in his eyes
told her he understood, and would never fail to deliver as had her husband and
uncle. He had honed her to a fine weapon, withholding his painful attentions if
she failed him, awarding her triumphs with the almost transcendent agony of his
curses. He told her he loved her with each curse strike, each raping of her
mind as he plundered her for bits of information she might be withholding from
him. She saw the lie of the perception, but clung to it anyway.
He knew from the first that she loved him. She knew from the first that he
found the emotion alien, but would exploit it. It was fitting. He was her
punisher, her protector, her God. She acknowledged the single-sided emotion,
regarded it as she would a mirror. Her true reflection was his lack of feeling
for her.
It was the reason, all those years ago, that Bella Black refused to take her
own life after the shame of her endless deflowering. She was nothing but a
weapon, a thing to be used and then discarded if it failed to do the work that
was needed. It was a lesson that her lover-uncle had started teaching her when
she was young.
There was only one night that she spent in his bed, her God’s. That one night
cemented her devotion to him, even as it degraded her long-forgotten husband.
It was her power over the men who had never understood the true, malformed
beauty that lay behind Bella’s darkly alluring facade. She was His weapon, His
wife of the shattered and scattered soul, His object to wield against the
pitiful Mud that they fought. In that night she lay with him, his skin cool,
his breath foetid, she acknowledged that he was all things foul, filthy, and
evil, all things that she was behind her mask of mad beauty. She loved him for
it almost as much as he was contemptuous of her for that love.
Then, on that Samhain night of agony, her Lord entered that strange half-life
and the boy Potter deprived her of her God, she raged against fate. Even if she
could not prove it by her delicious torture of the two Aurors, the Dark Lord
still lived. He always would, if only in her heart. Bella ran for cover, along
with her weak husband and the very promising Dolohov and Crouch. Finally, they
had been caught, after the untold damage that they inflicted on blood-traitor
and Muggle vermin alike. She then was forced to submit to yet another scent;
the dank, rotten, prison smell of Azkaban. For all those years that she lived
there, she welcomed the Dementor’s visits, would have embraced the creatures as
lovers if they expressed such a desire. They let her relive her agony, her
failure, her pain. They stripped her of the good in her life, her memories of
the time before Uncle Orion’s interest, giving her the penetrating gift of
agony over and over. They gave her back that first blood-blackened night that
had ushered in her fear and love as a child. They gave her the two entwined
emotions in a single scent of festering decay. Bella was in ecstasy in that
prison, and emerged just as whole as when she entered.
Bellatrix Black-Lestrange was never a good girl, and not a good woman. She was
an excellent weapon, however, and she would serve her Lord until she died.
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